“I’m mean.

it’s possible for you to’t be mean in show business.”

Ellen DeGeneres is consumed with whether people like her, and it’s seldom funny.

Ellen DeGeneres waves while holding a microphone, wearing a shirt and pants with a blazer, standing in front of a stage with plush chairs

The initial moments of the special touch on the controversy in a very nudge-nudge-wink-wink way.

I chuckled at one bit on parallel parking.

She addresses the scandal head-on around 15 minutes in.

Ellen DeGeneres stands on an outdoor stage, smiling and clapping, surrounded by fans and flowers

“I got kicked out of show business,” she begins.

“‘Cause I’m mean.

you’re able to’t be mean in show business.”

Ellen is standing in front of a dark background filled with large, negative words such as "MISCONDUCT", "PHONY", "TOXIC", "FRAUD", "HYPOCRITE"

Now, I didn’t see the other names on the ballot…

It’s a horrible thing to say about somebody."

Do you know how hard it is to dance up steps?

Ellen DeGeneres stands against a backdrop of torn newspaper headlines criticizing her show and persona, with overlapping voices in the background

Would a mean person dance up steps?

I don’t think so.

I loved that show, I loved everything about that show.

Ellen DeGeneres, wearing a simple outfit, stands on stage holding a microphone with the caption "I got chickens"

It was a family to me," she continued.

“We had so much fun together at that show.

“I realize I was chasing my employees and terrorizing them.

Ellen DeGeneres wearing a simple outfit, performs stand-up comedy on stage, smiling and holding a microphone. Subtitles read: "Yeah, 'cause I'm mean. Yeah."

I can see where this would be misinterpreted,” she joked.

Like I don’t think that Ronald McDonald is the CEO of McDonald’s.”

Kicked me out before ‘cause I told them I was gay.

Ellen DeGeneres stands on stage during a stand-up comedy show, holding a microphone. Text below reads, "How Ellen DeGeneres became the most hated person in America"

No gay people in show business."

Here’s the thing.

Ellen has also arguably received harsher criticism than many of her comedy peers for similar or worse conduct.

Ellen DeGeneres speaks during an interview. She is wearing a patterned blazer over a shirt. The background is blurred with hints of greenery

Afollow-up piecealso accused executive producers of sexual harassment and misconduct.

In Ellen’s story, Ellen is the most impacted by what happened at theEllenshow.

I have OCD and ADD.

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I’m a strong woman…I’m proud of who I’ve become."

If only we had seen a special that asked what she thought about her actions.

Ellen DeGeneres stands on stage with a microphone in her right hand, wearing a black long-sleeve top and dark pants. She appears to be mid-speech

Ellen DeGeneres sits in a white chair on a talk show set, wearing a buttoned-up dark shirt. She smiles and adjusts her collar

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Ellen DeGeneres stands on stage holding a microphone. Caption on screen reads: "Then they heard a rumor I was mean, they didn't like me"

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Ellen DeGeneres waves at the People’s Choice Awards, smiling and wearing a velvet jacket over a dark shirt

Ellen DeGeneres holding a gold award and speaking on stage at a televised event. She is dressed in a dark suit

Ellen DeGeneres holds an Emmy Award and speaks into a microphone, wearing a blazer and bow tie

Ellen DeGeneres sits relaxed on a chair, wearing a button-up shirt and pants, smiling at the camera

Ellen DeGeneres stands on stage with a microphone. Caption reads, "I'm happy not being a boss or a brand or a billboard, just a person"