“At the time, I felt ashamed to be having these thoughts.

But in retrospect, I now know that everything I was feeling was valid.”

I’m Hannah, and I’m afirst-time momto a 6-month-old.

Hannah lying on a couch and reading a book with the baby resting on her chest

The newborn weeks, in particular, were quite the whirlwind.

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Hannah holding her newborn baby outside

1.It took time to feel like myself again.

2.There were times when I couldn’t soothe my own baby, and that feels absolutely terrible.

Around this same time, things got really, really hard.

Ellie sleeping on Hannah's chest

Classic first-time mom over here!

I needed to remind myself over and over again that babies cry…a lot.

It’s their only way of expressing themselves.

Ellie sleeping on the couch next to our dog

I remember my husband and I once timed one of her pre-bedtime fits.

These were certainly some of the hardest moments of motherhood.

3.I mourned the loss of my “old life” and felt really guilty for that.

Hannah holding her daughter in a carrier wrap along the coastline

4.I cried a lot!

I’m not an overly emotional person.

I cried because I got a beautiful letter in the mail from mybest friendin Maine, written to Ellie.

Ellie asleep on Hannah

I cried watching my grandmother meet my daughter, her first great-grandchild.

Postpartum hormones are powerful.

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Breastfeeding Ellie, with caption, "She's been here for about an hour and counting"

5.Not all babies know how to fall asleep on their own.

6.Oh, and sleep is actually a learned skill.

7.Making “mom friends” was so important.

Ellie asleep in her bassinet

Going through pregnancy and childbirth around the same time formed a sort of innate bond.

It was so reassuring to have these women I could entirely relate to.

8.Babywearing is an absolute lifesaver.

Hannah sleeping sitting in a chair with her legs crossed and Ellie in a carrier on her chest

9.Naps may not happen in the bassinet or the crib for quite some time.

10.Breastfeeding was really, really hard, but it was ultimately very rewarding.

11.There’s a fine line between a tired baby and an overtired one.

Hannah introducing Ellie to their dog

12.There’s a concept called “wake windows,” and they are a game changer.

13.Postpartum tired is a new level of tired.

14.I felt so, so, so, so unprepared.

Hannah kissing her daughter on the cheek while holding her

15.I actually already miss the newborn days.

Hannah holding her daughter's feet in the water at the beach